“What is it about the fire? So calm and peaceful but inside, all powerful and destructive. It’s hiding something. Just like people do. Sometimes you have to get close to find out what’s inside. Sometimes, you have to get burned to see the truth.”
— Tekkon Kinkreet

i really love you, truly

Omg.
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hahahhah LOLOL woaahh ommgg ahhhh waohwoahowhoahfwaflangjds

Soul Eater update this month is AWESOME!

My friend Grace introduced me to this anime, and it looks pretty cool! Nice character design and really interesting mechas. What do you guys think? It's definitely something different. Maybe there's a manga...

BY THE WAY,
Here are the top fine art schools of 2009 (GRADUATE)
http://grad-schools.usnews.rankingsandreviews.com/grad/art/search

...I can't find many undergrad rankings. Too bad.

I had a really good time at WonderCon! I'm glad I went, and im glad my parents allowed me to go lol

My shoulders really hurt and my tireedd....and i have a TON of homework, but oh well, i'll try and pull it off tonight.
Today i had a lot of family/family friends over and ugh, so tiring.
Hmm not sure what to write, i hope everyone else has a good time!

I'm going
Dimitri isnt.
I'll be up early tomorrow, i'll be at your house before 8:30, alex! i promise i wont sleep in haha text/call me

I'm sorry if anything was stressful. I'm really sorry. tomorrow will be fun!
5:00-6:00 is when brian on

This is the first day this whole week were I have nothing due tomorrow (aside from a very easy english assignment). I do, however, have many long term projects to work on. Art Nouveau, Drawing, portfolio stuff... I know I should work on them, especially not that academics isn't in the way and that its my responsibility, but this one day without work is just soooo relaxing.
Ah, oh well I suppose its alright to indulge every now and then.
Tomorrow is Pokemon Day! I hope I get to battle tons of noobs and kick some ass (with the help of my beautiful McTasty >w<)

i showed dad the letter i wrote about comp civics and he was impressed and said "good job" and then he told mom and mom said, "dirty liar."

I checked the Competition Civics roster 5 times.
Each time, I saw my name. #24. Minnie Phan.
It didn't soak in until after school, when I had walked out to the front of the school and then back to Mr.Clegg's room... just so I could check one more time.
I did it.
I did it!
I made it into Comp. Civics!



Mr. Clegg didn't post the list until the last 10 minutes of lunch. There are no words conceivable that can describe how I felt before and after I scanned through that purple paper. I skipped over my name 6 times before refocusing on it and realized the significance of each deliberately placed letter. Adrenaline rushed through my blood when I ran back to Alex with a huge smile. I did it! I did it! (And I probably scared everyone around Alex)

I have never felt so... proud of myself. And grateful for all of those who had faith in me-all those who pushed and motivated me. And especially those who braced me for the possible failure. Their planning for my doom only made the fruits of my labor the more savory. I think Comp Civics and trying to get into it showcased all the growth I've made since my first years of high school. I went from a trouble making-class failing-naive prick; to someone who is passionate, motivated, and determined to do great. It feels like I've finally dug deep enough to find the gleaming treasure. And oh boy is it shiny. Real shiny.

I think the most astonishing thing was seeing my name among all the others. Each name was one that I recognized, and I could picture the faces the names belonged to. But I could also see that we weren't individuals anymore. We were a team.
But it isn't over yet, oh no no no. Now that I've made it into Comp. Civics, the real adventure is only beginning to sprout. In a few months, we will all be working hard and pouring hours into the class/team. In those months will be my real test of self-discipline and responsibility. AP Art, AP Art History, AP Micro/Econ, Comp Civics, Drawing 3-4, Social Justice, Math 4 (lol). It will be hard but I believe in myself! I have worked hard this whole year and I have changed both as a person and as a student. Next year I will have 3 things.

1) Lots of work
2) Support from amazing friends
3) Confidence

If I get the CCA Scholarship, I may even have some of my portfolio pieces done by the end of the summer, and (hopefully) an improved work ethic.

I know that is will be hard. I know that merely saying I can do it will not mean things will get done. But this is me, funneling my passionate into determination. I can do it. Yeah!

ALGEBRAIC!

Oh man YOU better watch this! I know i post stupid videos all the time but this is AWESOME. do not read this and scroll away... lol CLICK AND WATCH.
http://www.buenothebear.com/

I was a little irritated after lunch because of something silly. And the same thing bothered me after school and I threw a little fit. Dimitri had to talk to me and calm me down... after I had hit him out of frustration.

"Minnie, there's nothing to be frustrated about."
"...Yeah. I'm sorry. Do my punches hurt?"
"Ye--no..! They do not hurt..."
"Haha you're lying"
"hey this isnt fair, if I told you it hurt i would look like a pussy. :("
":D"

Haha poor thing. Okay i gotta not hit him anymore! I am so grateful for Dimitri. He is such wonderful support and does so much for me. He is okay with how emotional and sometimes irrational I am, and always looks super cute lol. Things are good when I'm around him.

Anyway, when I got home I had a snack and tried to draw more of my Art Nouveau thing..ahh I just don't have the energy or motivation. Right now i want to ink a comic idea thats been floating in my head. I think i will make a character representing my alter ego. Maybe that'd be cool! And hopefully, after an intense hour of pokemon I will feel better and what not

But earlier today, I was still dwelling on what had irritated me and I found me peace. There really is nothing to worry about. And its like Dimitri said, the more I worry, the worst things get. I'm not going to care much anymore, because there's no point to. Life is good, I just know it!